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Drums the heartbeat inside so One it is, the second missing Second's gone Seconds gone Seconds so Destroy the hopes Destroy the path Destroy the prospects so much longed for - And down it all And falling still And falling into deepest pit And blackest darkness spreads its wings And bleakest terror up now risen Deepest dreams their fright reveal Dreams deep down the nightmares but Dreams deep down a primal fear Dreams deep down now show their facets Dreems deep down - to hell with them And let the fire walk between them Fire now their base to tear Fire all my soul so shaken Fire all - and fire red Red like blood Burning down, deep down this all Not preventing deepest fall.
Past it all and not returns it Past all questions long ago Past the answers not - how could they As they simply not exist All so shaken deeply down here All so ruptured what once one All distorted, all's askew Sight so shaken once anew All the signs I saw were false All the hope I carried, lies All the dreams of future, gone All the things that seemed once won Won were just in false a hoping All interpretations void Lost it all - again - and fading Lost the fight, the war, it all Lost and not returns it ever - Lost - but where the hell I go? Where am I going? Where have I been?
And hope so Is gone And not coming back? So shallow it were? So sweet just its taste So lurid its smell So near seemed its reach And tight felt its grasp But now All so changed All so altered All so shaken Broke Apart And not Comes it back? Yet hope is resiliant And not likes to fade Tremors it sends Residues remain Hurting back Burning deep inside And nothing then Prevent it can And nothing then Will shut it down Break it down Break it! Broke it, Been there, Done that, Didn't work Still it lingers Still it haunts Still it pounds deep down this all Still so shaking Pushing Driving Take it back! Give it back I can't. No one Will take it Everyone has got enough That's the problem Expectations Won't shut up.
Won't even listen Won't comply Won't - or can't? No, won't.
They're driving nails inside my flesh Hammering them through and through Little ones, like needles almost Smaller just Can't find them so To pull them out Feel them still And can't remove them - All so twisted 'round and 'round All so painfully involved All the distance here gets lost All the barriers so have broken Crushed my soul in this sublime The climax has fallen down on me Broke it down It's broken almost
And no daylight sees me here Not a spark of sunshine Not a single ray of sunlight Not a distant, joyous mate Structures long ago so broken Fades the sense with every step Language here remains my fellow Words, however, seem to lack - Not a tiny sense of future - Not a little fundament - Nothing now in this can hold - I fold.
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