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what's here to think of what's here to know what's to complain isn't it all just so supposed? isn't it all just to take time isn't there more isn't there work isn't there anything that's to be done?
what to expect, is it so difficult just to go on, is it so strange to be on your own to just be unbound and free from such bindings and free from commitments that would just encase?
can't talk I with others can't stay I with friends can't stay I at home can't stay with the family stay with the parents and siblings and pets stay with my colleagues and other acquaintances seeking companionship seeking just anything else but my loneliness does it not work? does it not help?
how then but could it? all's just replacements for what I don't have all's just too neat all's just too nice all's just too shallow and can't go too far all's just too timid and time is my foe time will move on things will be moved things all will change change my surroundings all that remains shadows but being shadows it all shadowy images all but can be who's but a friend who's but an ally who's gonna stay who's gonna go who can you talk to when all's at its worst?
what kind of pleasantries want you exchange? what kind of small-talk is apt at the time? what is the weather like? heard you the news? didn't you know 'bout that roadside construction? are not they building a mall at this site? ain't prices too high? ain't politics dirty? and what was that movie like, aren't sequels no good? and did you read tit and did you read tat and read you at all oh, shut the fuck up, so what's it about - is that it, and all of it? and where is the hurt and where is the pain and where is the conflict and where is the substance and where is the point where it just starts to boil - and truth is a foe and truth is a victim and pleasantries all won't bring us all further they can't and they shan't, it's not in their nature
so show me a friend that's not that humane and show me a feller that won't but abide by those rules those stinking rules and rotten agendas who still but would care who still but would listen who still but would think about something not his?
so can't you see the much I love you, and need you, my friends, there's borders and limits to how far to take us and learn we just will to find where that is to find where's the point that'd break it all down and break it all up
so something is missing can't substitute that can't just build a network of people diversest can't just fill a function for him, her and them; that may quite be doable, may be quite workable, but still, ain't it tiresome, and still, ain't it restless and still, ain't it painful to not to go on to stop right in mid-run and don't quite go on?
and don't get me wrong, for neither want I to talk about everything just anytime you just wouldn't want it you just couldn't stand it and neither could I so just play it down and keep just the pace maintaining the limits of what we should say for anything else would be playing with fire and come to an end
but isn't it sad? and is this just it? is this what we are? and isn't there more?
just when is enough? just when must we stop it? when all's at its densest, would that be the point? could stand we a climax would break this it all? and all understanding might call it an end and cast the death and cast a shadow on what we would be?
so quietly we, while still there is time, establish our loopholes and build our fortresses make us impregnable against all to come but, say, don't you know? you just could go on not missing a thing and having arranged all in order to please you - and in comes the storm and in comes your fate and in comes the one you just cannot deal with in quite the same way, who takes you a lifetime to just figure out and soon you're addicted and craving for more.
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