POEMS GROUP 14: FLVCTVATIO

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES I:

WHEN I LOOK AT YOU

(an English variation on Cuando Te Miro )

I.
When I look at you
The sky comes near
When I look at you
There is no fear

II.
When I look at you
There's heaven here
When I look at you
Has dried each tear

III.
When I look at you
All hope returns
When I look at you
All fate adjourns

IV.
When I look at you
Just hope prevails
When I look at you
Just nothing fails

V.
When I look at you
All cries subside
When I look at you
All wrongs are right

VI.
When I look at you
My girl you are
When I look at you
All pain's ajar.

November 17th, 1999

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES II:

KILLING TIME

I.
No time to see,
No time to hear,
No time to think,
No time to go.

II.
No time to be,
Just time to fear,
No time to link:
All times ago.

III.
No time to plea:
All filled with tear?
All fixed in ink?
In timely flow.

IV.
No time for me -
No time now near,
Gone in a blink,
And eas'ly so.

V.
No time for thee -
Not time just mere -
To time we cling,
To time we bow.

VI.
So! Time we flee -
All time so sheer,
All times then sink
A heart we show.

April 30th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES III:

HER EYES SO BRIGHT

I.
Her eyes so bright,
Her voice so right,
And yet, astray,
So far away.

II.
The reach has broke
And logic woke -
Restrictions come,
All passion gone.

III.
In theory,
So clear to see,
But put to act,
The heart not backed.

IV.
And still, a wish,
Or gibberish,
Imagined all -
All had to fall.

V.
All thinking cruel,
And I'm a fool,
No step I dared -
Not well I fared.

VI.
While hope's astray,
A friendship stay -
May all subside,
Her eyes stay bright.

April 30th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES IV:

TOUCH OF THOUGHT

I.
Words gently flow,
And speech will go,
The thoughts then touch,
Implying much.

II.
In words unite
What thoughts may bind,
The dream so clear,
But still - too near.

III.
Evade shall I,
Still asking why,
Am terror-filled,
By logic billed.

IV.
Adhere to what -
I feel like shot,
Like dying now,
To dread I bow.

V.
Already dead,
It feels too bad,
Or yet to live -
And yet to give.

VI.
The moment stays
Through all the days -
A touch of thought
Is more than naught!

April 30th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES V:

DECISION!

I.
As dreams subside,
Ways open wide,
The theory
So clear to see.

II.
A move to make -
A risk to take! -
A step to dare -
Whenever, where?

III.
Decision, come!
My mind too numb,
My mouth too slow,
My fears just grow.

IV.
Confront? Evade?
Just find your fate!
Evade - confront:
What do you want?

V.
No more just wait,
No more just bait,
No more just pain,
So much to gain!

VI.
But what to lose?
Go on, but choose!
The choice is clear,
Alone so sheer.

April 30th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES VI:

FALLEN

Cannot sleep
Cannot think
Want not eat
Want not drink

All so twisted
And so curled
And to consequences turned

All so strange, askew and shaken
Something seems to have awaken
Deep inside,
A strange volition,
Deep in hide,
A strangest vision

Thoughts and questions all so pounding
Like my heart they seem now sounding
Turns it all - but now to better?
Turns it all - no mind, no matter,
Nothing artificial here -
Just your face and voice come near,
Just your presence now can soothe me,
Just your presence now can save me

All what strong inside has broken
All resistance long so faded
Fallen am I, fall'n and shaking,
In my sleep I still am waking,
In my waking state in dreams

Fall'n am I,
Bewitched, Bewildered,
Fall'n so deeply,
Fall'n for you,
Fall'n in all my deepest longings
And just now
You need to hear.

August 31st, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES VII:

SOMEBODY MISSING AT MY SIDE

When I enter the night
Somebody missing at my sight
Empty blankets, empty space
Emptiness at every gaze

When I see something nice
Somebody missing at my side
Every joke or tale gets lost
Every moment vasted so

When I just need a touch
Somebody missing at my side
Empty rooms and empty seats
Vanity just fills no need

When I just need to touch
Somebody missing at my side
The air I touch just hurts my hand
No pet replaces human skin

When I sit at the table
Somebody missing at my side
No one to share my bread
No one to share my water

When I just want to share
Somebody missing at my side
Without a reader, there's no text,
In loneliness, there is no life

August 31st, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES VIII:

DON'T WANNA PLAY STRONG

Don't wanna play strong
Don't wanna play tough
Don't want it
Not all the time
Not all the days

Don't wanna play settled
Don't wanna play content
Just wanna be honest
And wanna be human
And once at a time
Just someone to trust
Just someone to hold
Just someone to hold my soul

I'm sick of the playing
The games and pretentions
The stupid inventions
And mind-spinning ploys,
Just simple and honest
Just one place to rest
Just you
And me
One

August 31st, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES IX:

NO WORDS CAN SAY

No words can say
No mind can grasp
No letters catch
No sound it bind

And not the fiercest night obscure:
The truth is simple, plain and pure
And without doubt
No limits here

And now for once
All time stands still
And now for once
Just you and me

The words to say
So empty seem
Communicate
A simple theme

So full my heart
And jumps my soul
Electrified
My walls now fall

And all to say
A single line
The words so known
With meaning filled

I love you, dear,
And love you always -
Missed you so for endless times
Now I see you, all has changed.

E pieno è
Il mio cuore
Di amore
Per tu.

E tua bellezza
E la grazie tua
Mi hanno catturato
Per sempre
Ti amo.

September 9th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES X:

LOST

Lost
Unfound
To silence bound
Alone so sheer
And caught in fear
And every move
So lost in stun

And every impulse bound by waiting
Emptiness then all negating
Vanity a lone companion
And in all, the spin gets starker
Spins it all and turns around now
Every single spark soon lost so
Nothing gained and nothing longed for
And in all indifference
All momentum now so lost.

Lost the days
Lost the nights
Lost this life
Fades to black
Empty so

Don't let go
Don't get lost
Seize the day -
Oh, what the fuck.
Just shut up

Lost it all and turns to aching
Lost all waking and all making
Lost the dreams deep down to fire
Burns it all, all will expire,
Nothing here retains its worth

All so shaken
All so stirred
All to fiercest tremors turned
And lost
To dark

September 9th, 2000

FLVCTVATIO - TEMPESTATES XI:

TURNING ME CRAZY

Turning me crazy
When you sit next to me
Turning me crazy
When I just feel you're near
Turning me crazy
When I see you once more
Turning me crazy
You are

And nothing to do
And nothing to say
And all has been dealt with
And all has been said?
And hope thus diminished
And hope becomes frail
And all which remains -
I'm crazy like hell

October 21st, 2000